DON'T READ ME-----> a 100% broken english blog

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

PaperS and Pens...are my best friends..read and you'll know why....

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all of us doodle...i doodled most of the time...and especially recently......
especially those times when im feeling so darn down and where there's no one to talk to(or dont feel like telling any1) those times when i so darn pissed off with some humans.....
those times when i needed encouragement.........
times wen im bored, wen im sleepy or hungry or BLANK..JUST ANYTIME.......
anytime wen im having a paper and a pen with me.........
i doodle ALL THE WAY..scribbing words and drawing craps or even lyrics of the songs im listening to.....

you would have noticed that my textbooks or notebooks or any paper around me are ALL scribbled............
i feel like taking some photos of it and post it here..but GUESS WAT.........
I FORGOT ABOUT MY LAPPIE TODAY== so yeah...HERE'S THE POST WITHOUT THE PHOTOS...there goes the fun...

i have no idea wat is wrong with me lately....the WILL to study is ALL GONE..........
i tried making myself study and HONESTLY..NOTHING WENT IN........
my friends kept telling me that im too stressed up...they said that i "think too much"...da problem is.........
IM NOT FEELING THE STRESS (though it's only 48mre days left....) NOR IM THINKING TOO MUCH cuz im like TOTALLY BLANK right now.....

no matter how much i pushed myself to study........
no matter how much words of encouragement i scribbled across my books to encourage myself to study and stay positive.......
no matter how many papers i pasted on my study table to remind myself about my dreams.........
and forget about da coundowns i've been making to remind myself that TIME, is moving without waiting for anyone.........
IM STILL IN THIS CONDITION..IT'S PATHETIC.......

when i couldnt blog out things that i wanted to...........
when i wanted to express my anger and feel like shouting it out loud to the whole world.........
when music fails to heal my soul........
when there's smthing i dun wan others to know........
when i needed some1 to tell me smthing that i wana hear........
when i need strength to carry on.........
when im happy....in every type of mood im in and in every type of situation and obstacles i've been through..........
when there's a pen and a piece of paper.........
i'll write....even the tiniest piece of paper, or a pen running out of ink...I'LL WRITE....

and most of time.....writing does helps..........
no doubt that my language SUCKS BIG TIME.........
my vocab isnt that WIDE nor my GRAMMAR is perfect........
there's NOTHING special about the words i used or the way put them in sentence unlike some other "PRO" bloggers out there........
im just using DARN SIMPLE and UNDERSTANDABLE words to describe all the feelings im feeling now..........
i'll feel better...

but when i looked back at all those things i wrote...........
each simple sentences that i scribbled had their own meanings and story.........
SUPER SIMPLE sentences like "I HATE HIM" or "I CAN" or "STPUDITY KILLS" or "WINNERS NEVER QUIT, QUITTERS NEVER WIN" or "STAY STRONG" or "I'M POSSIBLE" or "IT'S ALL A LIE" or "BORING laaaaaa" or "SLEEPY laaaaaa" or "STUPID ME" or "I CAN DO IT" or "NEVER SAY NEVER" or "REMEMBER YOU DREAMS" and all non ending things that i could think of..............
things that i lived through it......i realized one thing......

i've been talking to myself A LOT..LOL.........
im communicating with MYSELF.........
it's like im telling myself the problems im facing and im solving them MYSELF..........
im encouraging myself to work harder and work towards im aiming for.......no matter when im sad, GREATLY DEPRESSED, TOTALLY HATED SOMEONE, angry, feeling happy or wanted to achieve something..........
it's ALL UNDER MY OWN CONTROL......IT'S THE MATTER OF WHETHER I WANT TO CONTROL MYSELF OR NOT....

and another IMPORTANT thing that u've gotta notice from doodles you scribbled..........
things NO ONE ELSE but YOU YOURSELF knows............
things that YOU'RE telling YOURSELF...............
the happiness YOU shared with YOURSELF...........
the satisfaction YOU get when YOU worked for it...........
the strength YOU gave YOURSELF to move on.........
the encouragement YOU gave YOURSELF to stay positive.............
the one who's ALWAYS with YOU all the time.........
the one who'll NEVER abandon YOU in life.............
YOUR BEST FRIEND...............
MY BESTFRIEND..........
ANYONE'S BESTFRIEND...............
IS YOURSELF

48 DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS

the answer ALWAYS lies in YOU.......

3:43 PM

Friday, October 16, 2009

B-s, S-es, D-s, and F-s....what word should i use besides these???

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you know what....sometimes i dont mean to use these words....but i could really think of nothing to substitute these words......maybe you could give me a BETTER word to express my anger to some of those who are unfaithful, fakers, darn sweet talkers, gives a hell lot of excuses+reasons when there's somthing wrong, trying to make someone feels guilty to show that you're such a "good" person, always trying to put the blame on someone, hurt someone and saying sorry for like HELL LOTSA TIME...haih..you know what..i dunno how to describe them anymre......

to GIRLS: tell me what you think if :

1. your guy brought up the breakup issue for twice....and in the end he says sorry and said that he brought up the issue cuz he was STRESSED UP.

2. He calls another girl HONEY and tells her that he loves her????

3. In his FB relationship status he put "MARRIED" to ANOTHER GIRL??? (da SAME GIRL)

4. and he tells you that he did that cuz the SLUT (give me another BETTER WORD) wants to make her boyfriend jealous????

5. Tries to make you feel guilty by saying how he treated you "nicely" and ure not treating him the same????

6. and when you wanted to breakup, you want a discussion and he says SOME OTHER DAYS FIRST?????

7. and when you called him, trying to breakup, he goes sweet talking with that "wonderful" TONE of his and in the end making you feel you dun wana breakup????

8. he's VERY SENSITIVE and always teases you about finding a guy over the other side??????

9. SMOKES, DRINKS, GO CLUBBING cuz he FRIGGING DARN STRESSED UP????

10. when you're face to face with him, both of you are ok....when you're apart, you'll get sweet together at times and will argue like hell???will you still want this relationship to go on??? keep dragging and dragging and dragging??? and this is your FIRST relationship.....GIRLS..WHAT WILL YOU DO???

to GUYS: what you think if :

1. your girl is acting like THAT (ABOVE)????

2. tell another guy she loves her????

3. haiya...i dun really know that slut well so i wont say much la....just tell me what u think....

seriously...i cant continue this any longer.....makes me wana EXPLODE.....im SUPPOSED to write him a LONG msg........i even felt like CALLING HIM UP AND SHOUT AT HIM......but i feel that it's between him and her......it's best for me to stay away right?????afterall.......my fren STILL likes him A LOT......she cant even say it out that she wana breakup.....all the reasons she gave me, i could feel that she's not willing to let the relationship go.......I KNOW IT'S HARD...as in REALLY REALLY HARD....but...AT LEAST she told him how she felt all these while.....and since she feels that THAT relationship can still be saved, i'll just let her do it.....but what i think is, there's no point saving it......sooner or later.....im 100% sure that it'll happen AGAIN.....just dont let it be true.........she's my friend n i'll support ALL her decisions (ALTHOUGH THEY'RE STUPID)...and sooner or LATER....let's just hope that SOMETHING WILL KNOCK HER HARD ON HER HEAD and make her realized that it's NOT WORTH IT........

to that friend of mine, sorry for blogging this out.....i cant take it anymre larh.....COULDNT TOLERATE WIT HIM OR ANYTHING........IM SURPRISED THAT YOU COULD.....the conversation last nite....i've advised you EVERYTHING that i could ever thought of....so im not gonna put it ALL here..too much dy......LOL....it's all up to you.......you think you can drag this relationship, go ahead.......wishing you all the best in ur xams....and MAY YOU LIVE HAPPILY WITH HIM......tell me what happen after that TWO DAYS PERIOD of cooling down.....i DARE to admit that im NOT SUPPORTING this relationship........I HATE HIM (i think you know it) take care you.....

8:38 AM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

BEP!!!!!!! FREAKING FREAKING COOLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!

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i dun really like this song....but i DUNNO WHY....I LOVE SINGING ALONG..HAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA BUT THIS VIDEO IS SOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW I WISHED I WAS THERE MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why were they SOOOOOO SPORTING???== why cant smthing like THAT happen in MALAYSIA????!!!!!!!!! HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOL alrite alrite...dun wana spoil this NICE video with m'sia craps...HAHHAHAHHA ENJOYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL LOL LOL

4:00 PM

Saturday, October 10, 2009

now i know the meaning of "the hardest word is to say goodbye".......

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sorry ISNT the hardest word to say....GOODBYE is......it's been 2days now......the feeling still lingers around me....the emptyness is still here.......but im DONE CRYING.....

Year 1993

my bro was only a year old when she came....and it was just a few months when we moved into this house.....my dad discovered her underneath our red volvo (which we used to call it "the fire engine" sold it away a long long time ago...) my dad tried to shoo her away...but she just kept coming back....in the end...she stayed with us without knowing that she'll be part of our family....for SIXTEEN YEARS............

Years after....

i was small in size and was always afraid that she'll knock me down anytime when i blocked her way when she was running.....zooming all the way around the garden of my house.....i always walked aside when i heard her running......especially those times when she knew that food was going to be served......well....she knocked me down ONCE.....and it hurts....

her name appeared in my english essays for lots of times......one particular essay was the one i wrote when i was in form 4 which Mrs Helena commented that it was "quite touching"....a story that i adapted from a newspaper report about an old lady who lost her dog in a fire for saving her life and a CAT WHO STARTED THE FIRE.....i clearly remembered that the story ended with the old lady putting a box of choc cookies for the dog under a maple tree.....the another story was about my childhood memories written for my homework given by Mr. Chan, my only english tuition teacher.......this time.....i wrote about Blackie saving us frm a cobra....yes....she saved us from snakes a lot of times..i wonder why there were lotsa snakes by then....there was once she saved my bro n my sis frm a snake when they were playing in the garden......im still remembering it.........

i remembered those mornings when she accompanied me and my maid for my school bus.....those mornings i had to wake up early and walked out to the junction to wait for my bus.....i felt safer with her presence.........and i missed those cold mornings terribly though i had to wake up early.........

i remembered how she loved running out from our house and wandered around the neighbourhood.....and how my dad whistled she'll come zooming back........and sometimes we did not noticed that we went out and accidentally locked her outside.....she'll then sit and wait for us to open the door for her patiently.......that piece of memory is still here with me..ALWAYS....

i still remember those times she waited for us to go back......those times when we opened the gate, she'll be there to welcome us home happily......she'll bark.....but as times goes by, the barkings got less.......

i remembered those times she celebrated CNY with us......those times when we were "welcoming" the "gods" where we had to pray and offered food, she'll be there with us......and when we had honey, this lil' brat will try to go near our food, trying to eat them...but blackie was there to guard it....she'll forbid honey frm touching the food......one sense of movement, blackie's barks will scare honey away....it was such a funny scene that i used to laugh at....but im afraid there's no more left to laugh........

i remembered those times when we had steamboats outdoor....she always there too.....she'll sit in a corner watching us eat...and we'll give her some treats too.....those times we had a family gathering outdoor, she's always there......

im watched her got older......she always got sick...she had cataract.......i was SOOO afraid that she might went blind.....well..she ALMOST got blind.....i remembered watching her banged a pillar when she was running.....it was scary......but she did not get blind......my dad brought her to the vet and gave her some vitamins etc etc......

her sense of hearing was getting weaker too....she cant hear us when we called her.....and there was this time i thought that she was going to die.......she was sleeping underneath my dad's car and she was not aware that my dad was going to go out neither did my dad knew that she was underneath it.......her skin was burnt and we brought her to the vet and let her stay in the clinic for a few days HOPING that she could recover FASTER but HELL NO......I WILL NEVER FORGET BOUT THIS CLINIC CUZ DA NURSES WERE STUPID AND IM NOT GOING BACK TO THIS VET ANYMORE......blackie was practically suffering there bcuz she was not well taken care of......THEY DID NOT FEED HER WITH PROPER FOOD....they were like dumping her aside.....CURSE THEM....blackie was WEAKER THAN EVER when we got her home....she was wobbling and did not have the appetite to eat.....and finally it was US who nursed her back till she gained her strength again.......

and there was once when the doctor diagnosed that she had cancer...however, she recovered...........she overcomed these obstacles one by one........but from day to day...she's getting weaker and weaker....i never hear her bark anymore.......

im trying to gather as much memory of her with me now.......blackie had always been an obedient dog.....LOYAL and so kind that it would not hurt a fly......if you give her a hand, she'll shake it......if you're my friend, she recognized you immediately and would let you pat her....if you're my foe, she wont stop barking at you and would probably chase you away.......she's an extremely intelligent dog that we loved so much.....which could make him partly "human".....she had been protective........and responsible than any human on earth.....

after regather all the memories of her.....i realized that she never leaves us.....the memory of her will always be with me and here you're reading it......these memories might be the MOST TYPICAL memories between a human and a dog......i've never cried so much before....it was really hard to see her go.....sixteen years of relationship........i would rather cry for a dog than a guy.......dogs are loyal....this is one of the reasons why i loved dogs so much.......and i could remember myself crying watching marley and me...at that moment, i was wondering how would i react when blackie die....i guess those phone calls to tammy and za could explain it........i cant even find words to talk to them.....i was just........silent.......

we burried her behind our house.......it took us hours to dig.......we prayed for her...and even gave her her fav meat dumplings.......i was crying like hell that night when we burried her.....it took me today to have the courage to blog this out........im thankful to have a group of friends with me giving me courage.....i love them......she's now gone.....and im still missing her......she's always a part of our family.......and will always be our guardian angel......

In memories of Blackie

1993 - 9th October 2010

~We miss you~

10:32 AM

Thursday, October 8, 2009

the mixture of a day....JOYs + SORROWs............

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told you THAT wasnt my last post...two-in-one yesterday.....well...lets just start with the JOYS first.....after all the fuss and some minor conflicts, my daddy allowed me to go kampar with karmun!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was SO SO SO SO SO SO (....................) HAPPY!!!!!!!!! tell you what....YESTERDAY....was my FIRST TIME having a FULL SAKAI REUNION IN KAMPAR!!!! not only mine....ALL FIVE OF US!!!! OUR VERY FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! went to za's house 1st, but she and joey wasnt dere cuz dey went over to joyce's.......tammy was there..HEEEEEEE........we went for dinner.......and then to westlake (MY VERY FIRST TIME-to give tammy's fren a bday surprise..haha) and then to joyce's house (MY FIRST TIME).....owh..and you know what???? they said ALL my "FIRST TIME" belong to THEM....BOOKED DY WORHHHHH..........LOL...and in case if you dont know, i've NEVER ride a BIKE b4...and so, JOEY said that im to ride with HER......I CANT IMAGINE THAT..HAHAHHAAHHA it was SUPER FUNNY........played with za's hammie!!!!!!!!!!!!=) dat's one RESTLESS HAMMIE....cant even take a proper pic wit HIM..LOL pics taken using my phone werent a lot...IM WAITING FOR KARMUN'S PHOTO==

ZAZA n mUAAAAAA=)

reunited=)

we were having dinner (chicken chop rice==) when za suddenly CLAWED the veggies away like a CAT....dat's what we call WASTING...TSK TSK TSK..ZA ZA ZA

da cake for da bday girl!!!!!=) in the car wen we were trying to light the candles up...HAHAHAA

DONE!!!!! with ZA's SUPER HEBAT DRIVING SKILLS..LOL

DA BDAY GIRL in westlake.....CUTE LEHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehe happy bday agaiN!!!!! sorry...didnt catch her name...hehe

in joyce's house with her hammie=) the ONLY "PERFECT" pic taken wit a hamster== now i know that HAMSTERS ARE ACTUALLY CAMERA SHY.....ESPECIALLY ZA'S HAMSTER!!!!!!!!!!!! UNLIKE THE MASTER!!!!!!!!! CHEH CHEH CHEH

THAT'S ZA'S HAMMIE..THE NAME IS B.I.M.B.O.M

AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH

IGNORE TAMMY....I NOE SHE'S ATTRACTIVE...hhahaahaaa..joyce's hammie eating!!!!hehe (front view)

side view..ADORABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL

alrite....at the end of this, before i start telling you the sad part of my day, let me introduce you to a JUNIOR MEMBER of the GANG SAKAI!!!!!!!!!! ANDREA ONG/WANG== HAHAAHAHAHHAHHAAAAA her pic is TOOOOOOO SEXY TO BE SHOWN......if i posted it out, i think humans wont stop asking me for her contact num n email etc etc etc..LOL SERIOUS...SHE'S TOO HAWT TO BE TRUE..HAHAAHA she wasnt able to join us yesterday=( SHE WAS SICKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DANG HER MEDICINE!!!!!!!! hehe..get well soon baby!!!!!!!!!!!=)

alright...to the bad part....no more "HAHAHAHAs" to be used........

those people who had known me since i was in primary school....those people who had came to my house before.....my cousins, my friends, my sister's friends, my bro's friends, my dad's friends, i mean every1.......im sure all of you knew that i have this big black dog......

she's not some "branded" or even "expensive" dog.....it's just a normal BLACK dog you could see on streets or in markets......her name is BLACKIE...people normally dont ask for her name...they'll just name her "The Black Dog"......so now let me tell you smthing.....she's in pain now...yes...."The Black Dog" is in pain now....BLACKIE is.....

my bro went home early yesterday....and he heard her cry......she even had tears in her eyes.......when my dad knew that....when ALL OF US knew that....we rushed home to see her....she wouldnt eat....she wouldnt drink....she was just lying there, too weak to move.....the pain to see her being this way is UNBEARABLE......i tried hard to control myself from crying..well...congratulate me cuz i succeeded.....it was bcuz karmun called me that she had reached my house and i was on my way to kampar..........

this "Black Dog" has been with us for almost SIXTEEN YEARS...yes...SIXTEEN YEARS.....she was once so strong and so fierce......now she's just so weak..it was unbelievable.....she's not dead yet...but she's going to....yesterday when i was in kampar, my sis, mum and even my dad were in tears.....it's really hard to see her this way.....please pray for her......it's gonna rain now and im typing this in my dad's office.....im going home to check on her......more on later.....

60 DAYS TILL ACCA EXAMS

~told you days are leaving in TENS..pray for me too......

2:41 PM

Thursday, October 1, 2009

it's 66 more days.......

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66more days till my exams....seriously..im not exaggerating or anything.....66 days may seem like a LONG period to some of you, but to me..it's clearly INSUFFICIENT for me to be prepared..for the previous months, i had been helping my dad on his mag/book and it's ready to be published now.....and so my studies was kinda NEGLECTED (but i still attend classes...) ACCA is NOT AN EASY COURSE......i need LOTSA revisions right now....

but i cant stop onlining..LOL have all da blame on MYSELF..haha...i was KINDA addicted to this game lately.....SORORITY LIFE == on FB.....i met new friends.....which are nice...and some, we were enemies which finally turned into friends....and im still wondering why they treated this game SO seriously...LOL...and..i feel like deleting this account of mine....i really really really need to STOP playing or else i'll ended up like one of those DOTA FREAKS== anyone knows the way how?????

this might be my last blog entry (OR NOT) till ive finish my exams.....so..i'll like to say a few words before abandoning everything.....but i think i'll have a few updates via TWITTER..HAHAHHAHAAA

this month, has been the most happening month through the year....i met new people from net, met my old school mates, attended raya open houses where i laughed a lot with all my dearest juniors, met my dearest high school teacher, had my new haircut, went out at night with my close friends for the FIRST time, had some disputes with one of my close friend which eventually we're closer than ever now, wrote a letter to "santa" and now, i witness the power of forgiveness and everything is back like once it was before.......

to my librarian juniors.........

to those who are having exams this month, ALL THE BEST TO YOU GUYS!!!! you may not be reading this cuz i think ure BANNED frm touching the NET..LOL...keep holding on till the last paper..show the rest what you've got....stop THEM from looking down on you....we're ALWAYS the BEST and ALWAYS a TEAM!!!!!!personally to mel, we've been chatting a lot lately eh....i enjoyed sharing songs with you and thanks for recommending me those marvelous songs that i cant stop listening at the moment...LOL...remember what u've promised me....show you parents that you can do it.....you're NOT STUPID..and you know that..and im VERY happy to see that you're actually WORKING HARD ON IT....we do love each other thought we ALWAYS have those "crappy" WARS..HAHA....always remember that im here to support you...and not forgetting about your FRIENDS, who'll stick with you NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS...love you guys to da max!!! thanks for all the fun, special thanks to ez again, for inviting me to your open house=) no matter how many years had passed, BLUE will still be the colour...

to all my online friends.......

i'll miss chatting and cracking jokes with all of you.....those times we shared our problems and stuff..lol..keep on being strong and most important of all, HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF.... to all my sorority life sis, thanks for all the backups all the times..i'll miss playing that game because of you girls out there..HAHA..you guys rock to the max(not the game...haha)=) and the bloggers out there, miss shu yin, yunxin and the rest=) i'll still continue reading your blog though smtimes im not dropping any comments...HAHA....trust yourself and never loose hope...i've no idea what im saying..HAHA..will miss you!!!! i'll miss chatting with ALL OF YOU!!!!

to my high school friends.....

it's so nice to be hanging out with you guys again..the marshmallows, the bbq, the jokes you guys cracked..MAN..those made up my DAY...HAHAHHAHHAAHAA...please do keep in touch...will miss you guys all the same.....REMEMBER ABOUT THAT SEVEN YEARS LATER THINGY..i'll be waiting for all of you under the rain tree to dig out what we've once burried there=) to miss lee joe ee.....we've been chatting a LOT lately too....haha....im had fun chatting with you..LOL..dun worry..im not gonna disclose any of our conversation here..HEHEHE....i'll always remember the SHIT thingy...HAHHAHAHHAA..im sure ure gonna remember it as well....DENY NO MORE GIRL..LOL

to miss cynthia wan

thanks for everything.....thanks for all the trouble i gave you that you'll always help me voluntarily.....the pink dolphin, the notes, the textbooks and the revision kits, the exam fees thing...EVERYTHING....you rock to the MAX!!! i've NO IDEA how to repay you.....you're always the one who accompany me through this ACCA journey...MY SAVIOUR TOO...LOL...promise that we'll make it through TOGETHER this dec sitting ok????FOREVER BBF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love ya!!! MUAXXXXXXX

lastly, to the SAKAI GANG.......

we've been through so many things together......seriously....ALL FIVE OF US.....WE'RE VERY DIFFERENT PEOPLE.....we're chasing for our dreams, which are DIFFERENT.......our family background are different.....our way of dealing things, the life we're living in, our needs, our interests, our characteristics, the things we've been through are ALL DIFFERENT....BUT......we've ONE THING in common......WE TREASURE EACH OTHER....lots of things happened lately....but we've make it through it ONCE AGAIN....it was a surprise that we're still STICKING to each other..mayb we're meant to be=) from the time we were SO YOUNG till we're all grown ups now......and yeah...BEING TOGETHER IS WHAT MAKING US STRONG....love ya'll....MUAXXXXXXXXXX

when we were young and innocent (UGLY TOO) HAHAHAHA

and then we grew up (karmun is not in this pic)=(

karmun is in this pics=)

and hey....we're still stuck with each other....thanks SANTA=)

2:33 PM

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

of GAGAs and SWIFTs..bet u'll like this one HA

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I BET MY LIFE ON IT THAT NERRIZA CHOOI WILL LIKE THIS..LOL...i liked it A LOT..i know it's KINDA "OUT" that im only blogging this out NOW..haha..anyway....LADY GAGA IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO COOOOOLL!!!!!!!!!!!!! FROM THE BEGINNING of her performance till the END!!!!the way she heats up the crowd, her dance moves, her powerful vocals, HER HAIR, THE FIREWORKS IN THE END, i mean..EVERYTHING!!!!!! IT's just SOOOOOOOO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA I LOVE LADY GAGA I LOVE LADY GAGA I LOVE LADY GAGA!!!!!!!!! owh...she has a PRETTY face too(isnt it obvious) LOL..she has her OWN STYLE....kakaka..who would EVER DARE to dance like HER????haha....btw....it's da VMA 2009 LOL

and THIS..TAYLOR SWIFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love everything....dress, face, voice, settings, ALL of EM..and da CROWD TOO....hehe

this is the ACOUSTIC VERSION of you belong with me....i've ALWAYS love ACOUSTIC VERSIONS...it's the "originality" of the singers when it comes to acoustics........n i love this version of you belong with me the MOST..ALL GUITARS..BWAHAHAHAHHA=)

3:31 PM

Monday, September 28, 2009

to die, or not to die, to stop and to START....THIS..is the beginning of my doom's day.....

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from today onwards, my destiny will be depended on my EFFORT alone (uhm...+ LUCK too..LOL) let me just tell how how my DAY started.....i had this DREAM 2DAY(as in around 3AM i THINK) darn scary....i have NO IDEA how i ended up with a dream with TWO GHOSTS in it..FEMALE ghosts== one was at the traffic light, mumbling smthing to me in mandarin, well...not exactly MUMBLING cuz i did not hear her voice....i interpreted frm the movements of her lips smthing lie "Jiu Wo Arh" (save me) a VERY TYPICAL GHOST-LY conversation......and i was in the car with some humans which i have no idea who nor i remembered== and was driving past THIS female ghost over and over again....and all of sudden my dream shifted to this house (no idea whose or where) and there's another female ghost inside== n she was like following me EVERYWHERE== i wasnt really freaked out..I DUNO WHY..HAHHAHAAHHAHHA

then, i was awakened by the sound of the ALARM CLOCK of my sister.......and she put the lights ON for She-Knows-How-Long + the voice of her talking to my mum, I COULDNT SLEEP AFTER THAT..she's going to KL's KPMG for a week's course.....so i wont be seeing her for like FIVE DAYSSSSS............

and later in the morning my mum came to my room to wake me up and i was reluctant to OBVIOUSLY.....when i FINALLY woke up, i saw the msg cynthia sent, about us, registering for the exams TODAY at 10AM..when i reached my dad's office.....and signed in to MYACCA....i JUST NOTICED that the ID and PASSCODE for ACCA and CAT is now DIFFERENT!!!!!!!!!!! HOW STUPID COULD I BE????!!!! I LEFT MY ID CARD AND PASSCODE INFO AT HOME....AND SO I COULD NOT REGISTER!!!! i was planning to register AT NIGHT, and here comes cynthia again...in my FB status, she WARNED me NOT TO REGISTER 1st....OR ELSE...WE CANT DO THAT OXFORD BROOKES DEGREE THINGY!!!! it seems that we have to register to oxford brookes then only we register for acca PART 2== THANK GOD she TOLD ME....or else....wave BYE BYE to oxford brookes degree......and the CURRENT prob is......HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO REGISTER IT???IM LIKE IN TOTAL BLURNESS NOW. i think i shud ask my lecturers 2mrw....BIG BIG SIGH..why is EVERYTHING SOOOOO TROUBLESOMEEEEE.....

btw, my dad's mag/book is gonna finish today!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAAAHAAHAH THIS IS THE ONLY THING IM SUPER HAPPY ABOUT!!! AAHAHAHAAAHAHHAH and then, i could TOTALLY focus on my exams....BLESS MEEEEE

i was helping my dad to photostat his plan for his new pond for our house n i saw sm1 FAMILIAR which at first i have no idea hu...she's SMILILNG at me...i STARED at her...SORRY!!! IT IS JUZ MY HABIT FOR NOT SMILING WHEN I SEE A STRANGER/SOMEONE FAMILIAR!!! BAD BAD KUENMAY!!!!! shud change my BAD HABIT!!!! and after i paid, she was SMILING AT ME AGAIN..I TRIED TO SMILE BACK AT HER...it was then i realised...I THINK SHE'S ANDREA sei lorh..HAHHAHAHHAHHAA PAISEH BETUL!!!!! I COULDNT EVEN RECOGNIZE HER EHHH!!!!!! HAHAAHAHAHAHHAHA

EXACTLY 70 DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~told ya days are leaving in TENSSSS.....THIS..is just the BEGINNING......

11:07 AM

Saturday, September 26, 2009

i dont celebrate xmas...and xmas is till MONTHS away..it really does SEEM IMPOSSIBLE...but i'll do whatever it takes....

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Dear Santa,

All I want for Christmas is to have them back together like once they were before....i want to hear jokes they cracked that never fail to make me laugh...i want to camwhore with them that makes me look like a complete fool almost in every picture, pictures that i will treasure most when it is complete...i want them to drive me around when we were all laughing non stop in the car where people frm outside realized that it was our trademark....i want to take a ride on the car they drove that made me yell and shout "WATCH THE POLE IN FRONT OF YOU!!!!" i want to have breakfast, dinner and lunch with them where they could help me finish my food when i cant take in anymore and me grabbing their food when i cant have enough of the food..and that is what we meant by SHARING...i want to share my tears and joys with them....i want to have a trip with them to smwhre far away frm ipoh where we could do cheeky stuff together....i want to cook with them together where i wana witness how much fun we can have with food watching them burn and then we EAT it......i wana have fun playing water with them....i want them to hear when i was complaining how bastard that guy is...i want them to hear how much i hated that sucky dota game...i wana have a nice MSN chat with all of them and tried my best not to laugh cuz my dad is in front of me.....i wana have a sleepover with them and have girly talks together.....i want them to sing with me where practically we are not singing but shouting......i wana sing birthday songs with them together...i wana give them surprises and watch them cry.....i want a group hug....i want us to attend each other's graduation together........

but dear SANTA, i would never dare to dream for more because they are not talking to each other....but i want to let you know that i'll be now waiting for miracles to happen.....i'll wait till the day they DECIDED to talk to each other again...i'll wait till someone who's brave and bold enough to make the 1st move....i wana witness the power of FORGIVENESS.....im gonna put this as the FIRST item in my wishlist, followed by the passing of my dec exams and continuing my studies overseas which is my BIGGEST DREAM of all.......NOW SANTA...SHOW ME WHAT YOU'VE GOT!!!

Love,

kuenmay

great...i look like a KIDDY AGAIN== im writing a LETTER to SANTA..who knows what im gonna do NEXT....mayb i'll sit outside with my stupid pomeranian waiting for a wishing star where i realized that it was a helicopter paassing by like the one in MADAGASCAR 1 or or write a message and put it in a bottle and throw it in Teluk Batik where eventually i was caught by the authorities for littering and spend a day doing social works......GARHHHHHHH YOU TELL ME WHAT TO DO *sulking*

12:33 AM

Friday, September 25, 2009

a gathering at cassie's..haha

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alright...joeee's the one who told me bout it AGAIN..LOL..was facing a BIT of difficulties to ask for PERMISSION..but..i was REALLY a SURPRISE that my DAD ALLOWED AGAIN!!!!!!!!! AHAHAAHHAAAHHHAAHAHA

so parents fetched me to that "Pro Muscle" black building at 7 behind The Store to wait for others and cassie lead us to her house.....JOEEE TERSESAT JALAN..AHAHHAHAHHAAHHAHAH...

ate quite a lot and had fun with the MARSHMALLOWS and joking around with cassie's parents and granddad..HAHA...was laughing at all those jokes cracked by them till my tummy ached and had CHEEK CRAMPS......and did lotsa STUPID STUFF......LAZY WANA POST PICS AGAIN....so im gonna post videos INSTEAD..HAHA

THE BURNING OF THE MARSHMALLOWSSSSS....idea originated by LEE JOE EE..HAHHAHAHA

they are PROMOTING the marshmallows.....HAHA..LEE JOE EE, CARINA ONG and HSIN LIN KHOR=)

THE FAILED PLAN.....was supposed to AIM that bottle of sparkling juice at cassie and her guy....we were all in a VERY discussion when joeee said "'CASSIE KNOWS WUSHU" and everyone burst out laughing SOOOOO loudly==

ALL THE ABOVE VIDEOS ARE IN BAD QUALITY..SORRY!!! was recorded using MY PHONE..LOL

72 DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS

~THIS IS BAD...REAL BAD==

11:55 PM

Thursday, September 24, 2009

PLEASE STOP ALL THESE COLD WARS.....

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i've been typing and deleting this entry for a few times since that day you said that im SIDING on them...smthing juz BOTHERS me a LOT lately....i feel that im wrong to blog this out but i feel that i SHOULD blog this out the SAME....i know that among all of us, im not THAT close to you nor i had knew you the longest.....we just got close this year and so, YES i admit that i may not know you THAT much compared to the rest.....and to let you know...i TRIED to understand you MORE....but the fact is....you're the kind that you love keeping things to your own and seriously NO ONE knows what you were thinking....

first of all..i wana let you know that i CARE about you as much as i cared for others..if i werent..i wont BOTHER to send you those SMSes or even TRIED to have a conversation with you via MSN or FB where i was SOOOO disappointed that those msges were UNREPLIED..YET...i TRIED again and again....

you kept telling me that I DONT understand......if i dont..TRY making me understand then.....seriouly...im ALWAYS WILLING to listen alright....im not that ONE SIDED type of person (guess you doesnt know me that well too) and i will NOT judge smthing by juz looking at just ONE PERSPECTIVE.......but the issue is, you'll never tell me what was going on....and when i tried asking you to TELL me..i even felt ANNOYED by myself....i would've thought that i asked TOO much..but i couldnt help it cuz i CARE......how will you feel when you SEE your own best friends "fighting" and "not talking" to each other?? and would you juz MONITOR their "progress" without doing anything??? SORRY BUT IM NOT THAT KIND OF HUMAN

maybe you think that i'm siding OVER the other side bcuz i told you that your "msg was a bit HARSH"...i will only say what i think is right...seriously...ure not HURTING only one person alright.....i FELT HURT too..what do you mean by "THROWING THE NECKLACE AWAY"???? i mean COME ON..I WONT THROW it away alright??!!! you'll never know but since after you turned against them, issue about you is what we TRY not to talk about....it SERIOUSLY making us ALL feel GLOOMY....and for sure..YOU'LL ALWAYS BE A PART OF US NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED.......and by the way...there is NO SUCH thing as QUITTING........THAT WORD....you gotta use it CAREFULLY.....there will be no turning back....quitters never win and winners never quit......and seriously.....i NEVER would have thought that those words came from you......i was SOOOOOO SHOCKED when i saw the msg......seriously......read back the letter i wrote to you for your birthday (if ure still keeping it) i thought you treasure THEM more than anything else in the world (aside frm your guy and your family)...and so...i NEVER would have thought you'll say that..NEVER....

this is not da solution to solve all this......none of US are talking to each other.....i really do not want to be involved in THIS......can we just SETTLE it in a MORE adult manner????? seriously.....those msg you're NOT replying...will it juz make you feel better when we feel BAD???? or you'll feel your dignity being boost up???? or you wana say "LAZY WANNA CARE ABOUT ALL THIS ANYMORE" ???? or JUST LET IT BE???? NONE OF THESE GONNA SOLVE..NONE...it'll just make da situation worst....i always thought that AFTER high school, all COLD WARS would have ENDED....but i was WRONG.....

NONE of us wanted to loose you as a FREN..neither DO I......they were having their exams for the previous weeks......and seriously i think they needed OUR FULL support.....have you even TRIED sending them a simple "good luck" msg when they're about to face the papers???or have you even thougt about it?????especially za........the papers that she REALLY have to pass this time.....we all know that she was struggling trying to deal with her LEAST FAVOURITE SUBJECTS......and we all know that this is not what she wanted......but we could at least give her some words of encouragements????? the bond between you guys got weaker is bcuz NONE OF YOU wanted to start a conversation 1st and both parties were waiting for the OTHER to start.....

it all started with this matter when you think that we dont care about you........i dont know but mayb you felt leftout.....seriously....will you feel leftout more than ME????? my parents were SOOOOOO DAMN strict..you really doesnt know what IM FACING.........i REALLY HAVE TO BEG THEM for LETTING ME HANG OUT WITH THEM..YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW EVERYTIME I GOTTA WAIT FOR THE CHANCE TO ASK........AND EVERYTIME FOR SURE IT'LL ENDED UP IN A DISASTER.....i always tried my best to keep in touch with the others which smtimes making me feel like a FOOL till im ANNOYED of MYSELF.....right..i SAID IT..but i CANT HELP IT cuz that's what I WANT....besides, you hang out MORE OFTEN with them than I DO..YOU KNEW MORE THINGS THAN I DO.....you guys did MORE things together even before we got close......YOU KNEW THEM LONGER THAN I DO....off ALL those things they DID for you..of ALL THOSE YEARS YOU KNEW EACH OTHER..OF ALL THOSE HAPPINESS AND TEARS YOU GO THROUGH TOGETHER....OF ALL THOSE ARGUMENTS YOU HAD AND ENDED UP BACK STRONGER TOGETHER....OFF ALL THOSE STUFF THEY STOOD UP FOR YOU ...OF ALL THOSE THINGS AND SURPRISES YOU DID FOR THEM....OF ALL THOSE TIMES YOU STOOD UP FOR THEM YELLING AT THOSE GUYS WHO HURTED THEM BADLY....deep in my HEART i knew you REALLY cared for them....it does TOUCHED MY HEART of HOW you GREATLY cared for your friends....I WILL NEVER HAVE THE GUTS TO YELL AT A GUY FOR MY FRIENDS......BEING TOGETHER IS WHAT MAKING US STRONG....DO YOU THINK IT'S WORTH LOOSING SUCH FRIENDSHIP AFTER GOING THORUGH SO MANY THINGS TOGETHER?????

we all do miss you..it is not about who's wrong and who's right now....it's about saving a friendship that we never wana loose EVER

10:02 AM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

PUAN MURIZANN!!!! HERE WE COMEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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it all started with this SIMPLE msg by lee joe ee.....telling me bout the plan to visit puan murizan!!!!!!! LOL..i was SOOO DAMN excited...cant afford to say NO rite...but the problem is..TRANSPORT TO PUAN MURIZAN'S HOUSE!!! finally after those discussions....hsin agreed to fetch!!! I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPEEEEEEEEEEEEE..HEEEHEEE (that was yesterday)

and so today, i waited in mgs for hsin.....but wen i reached, i never noe dat carina n cassie arrived..LOL...so i waited inside my mum's CAR..HAHAHA..around 2, there came hsin along with bigjing and joeee!!!!NEVER SEEN DEM FOR LIKE AGES EHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAAAH..n so, i followed carina's car along wit big jing...and joeee n cassie followed hsin's car...hehe

1st of all....carina's driving skills are superb...SYOK BETUL...LOL..and her car right...had LOTSA INTRESTING STUFF..HAAAHAAAAA..photos NOT AVAILABLE here..LAZY WANA UPLOAD LAA...GO TO MY FACEBOOK account..LOL..i had da captions dere..HAHAHAHAHA

da route to puan murizan's house was QUITE confusing..her nephew came to LEAD us dere..HIS DRIVING SKILLS ASO DARN GENG..HAHA...can juz TERUS UTURN...LOL..but all i cud rmb were the ROW OF TREES (wic looks like dey were welcoming us to a CASTLE..HAHAH-according to hsin LOL) and the mosque...HEHE.....and den straight n straight n straight n den i duno where...heeheeeeee

her house IS SOOO NICE..and TIDY..isnt dat SEMAK as she said..LOL...she made us mee and rendang..YUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMMMSSSSSSSSSSS..feeling hungry again....HAHA..and we chatted and chatted and chatted.........

after eating and chatting, we toured around her house..HAHA..SHE HAS SOOOOOOOOO MANY WARDROBES...LOL..and i love the eldest daughter's room da MOST!!!!!!!!!!!! n owh...BOOKS IN HER HOUSE.......WERE SO DARN NEATLY ARRANGED...HAHAAHAAAA...and she told us dat cik lailatul said "KAMU SUSUN GUNA PEMBARIS KA????" LOL

and then...we took pics=) NOT really A LOT..but..SUFFICIENT to be kept as a MEMORY=) we gave her a BIG HUG and thanked her for her time and the FOOD and the TOUR=) THANKS PUAN MURIZAN!!!!! WE'LL MISS YOU!!!!

75 DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS

~owh yea...I'LL MISS YOU==

6:37 PM

Sunday, September 20, 2009

HAPPY RAYA PEOPLE!!!!!!!!! "SYOKNESS"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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i was onlining early morning when tammy dear called me up bout she's coming over to my house to attend those raya open house with me....and of cuz..TO SEE HER NEW HAIRSTYLE!!!!!!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!! and then.....juz a few minutes LATER....MISS KITYI told me that she's coming NOW!!!!!!!!!!! FOOIYOO!!! WITHOUT A WARNING!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHHAHHAAHHAHAHAHA....n so i gotta rush to change my SHIRT..LOL (i dun think she knows this..HAHA) N REALLY a few MINUTES LATER, she's in front of my doorstep wearing this really cute black dress and white pumps=)

went up to my room and we chatted...and when i was changing to my sis's PINK BAJU KURUNG, i suddenly heard "KUENMAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" with this TYPICAL VOICE== (who else if it's not TAMMY..HAHAHHAHHAHAHHAAHHA) and so, after changing i saw her sitting on my BED (that i never slept on..LOL) hehe....i was trying to find a dress for her when i FINALLY DISCOVERED the LOST LOWER DOWN PART OF THE BAJU KURUNG OF MINE SINCE LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAT LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!== n luckily tammy could wear it..HAHA..her hair IS nice!!!!!!!!!!!!! i curled kityi's HAIR!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAAHAHA...curled a BIT of mine..i dun want it 2 be TOO curly.....MAKEUP!!! n tammy's face is kinda in a BAD condition too..SUNBURN== ITULAH PASAL....MANDI KOLAM AIR PANAS PADA PUKUL SATU SEWAKTU MATAHARI PANAS TERIK..haha....in the end....we're ALL READY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1st destination: Datuk Seri's house (uhm...that's what i call him== my dad's fren)

reached there at around 12.45.....ate a BIT...saw puan cheah...AS USUAL=) and went over to say HI to her wit tammy and kityi...HAHA..n i took a pic wit her..hehehe.....we went off at around 120pm to EZRIN'S HOUSE!!!!!!!!!LOL

2nd destination: EZ's HOUSE=)

FIRST THING 1ST. WE GOT LOST LOOKING FOR EZ'S HOUSE== her dad had to come lead us there...HAHA...at first, i thought that we would be the LAST to arrive.....but...SURPRISINGLY..WE WERE THE FIRST..HAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....ez was SERVING us..LOL..n i "tried" to make it EASY for her..HAHAHHAHAHAHA....and here comes MISSY ANGLE 90 DEGREES and MISSY SUPERGIRL.....and then da form 2 juniors.....one of it was MISSY CHEESAN which i DO ENJOY BULLYING HER..HAHAHAHAA..IM NOT EVIL OK..HHAHAHHAHAAA..cuz im NOT da 1 BULLYING her..LOL....

tammy was practically like da "GOOD 19-year-old SENIOR" there...HAHA..cuz she juz sat there and laugh at the jokes CRACKED by my bunch of ABNORMAL juniors and ez's lil' cousin BRO!!!!!! HAHAHHAAHHAHAHHAHAAAAA we laughed like hell when ez said "YEAH, MY ASS IS LAUGHING" and peiyen did that THINGY with her KNUCKLES!!!!!!!HAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHA IT WAS HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!! DARN HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!! and i was calling mel miss angle 90 degrees the whole day..and all of them were CURIOUS about how it started..and SO............MEL n I was telling them about the "story" bhind it..n that LIL' COUSIN of ez clapped his hand and said "WHAT A GOOD STORY" i was like WHAT???? AND ALL ENDED UP LAUGHING.....and.....SIGH....WE WILL LAUGH OUT LOUD WITHOUT ANY REASON....human 1 said smthing, HAHAHAHAHAHHAHHA....human 2 said smthing, HAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAAH, human 3 said smthing, HAAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA....and then here comes the LIL' COUSIN saying "HAHA(monotonously) IT IS SO FUNNY THAT I FORGET TO LAUGH" AND EVERYONE ENDED UP LAUGHING SOOOOO MADLY AND SOOOOO LOUDLY AND THAT LIL' GUY WAS JUZ LOOKING AT US WITHOUT LAUGHING AS IF HE'S LOOKING AT A BUNCH OF HYENAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we camwhored A LOT...but im TOO lazy to post da pics here..HAHA..gonna put it in FB SOON...LOL...after camwhoring, every1 sat in ez's room..chat n chat n had a PEACEFUL moment.....then, it's time to go home=) thanks ez for inviting!!!!really do had a GREAT time there at ur place=) thanks for your hospitality!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tammy n kityi went back with me..over to my place....and we had a REALLY GOOD TIME KARAOKEING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TAMMY DID SOME REALLY STUPID STUFF SINGING PARIS HILTON'S STARS ARE BLIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHA WAS LAUGHING SO DARN MUCH TILL MY CHEEKS CRAMPED SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I RECORDED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and recorded some video for dear za=) I STILL FEEL THE CRAMP NOW..HAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAA

I LAUGHED A LOT TODAY. AND STILL AM. i really had a G.R.E.A.T. time with ALL MY FRIENDS TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!happy happy QUEEN=)

78 DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS

~HAPPY LEHHHHH.........

11:44 PM

Saturday, September 19, 2009

yesterday and today.......happenings.....

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let's start with what happened yesterday...it was my FIRST TIME going out LATE AT NITE!!!! wit my dad's PERMISSION of cuz [SURPRISINGLY=)] went to parade with za, tammy and joyce!!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHHAAA...dey was SUPPOSED to go to GUA TEMPURUNG in da MORNING...but ended up there LATE n so they're not allowed to go in..SAD SAD....and so tammy msged me bout da route to SUNGKAI..there's a HOT SPRING there...and when they reached there, it was ALMOST 1+..IMAGINE THE BURNING SUN AND THE HOT SPRING..FOOIYOOOO..SYOK ORHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAAHHAHAHAAAAA

practically i was waiting for them in my dad's office.....was waiting the whole day when they finally told me that they were coming to ipoh n it was about SIX...dad gave the permission to go out with dem!!!!!!!LOL.....in the end i was back home and there came za in da RED KANCIL..HAHAHAHA...

they had not eaten for the WHOLE DAY...and they were DARN HUNGRY....and so we went to RITZ HOTEL's kopitiam for carbonara!!!!!!!!!!!YUMMMMMMMYYYYYYYY=P and we were chatting ALL DA WAY....talked bout sm DISGUSTING STUFF (AS USUAL...HAHHAHAHHAHA) and loadz n loadz of more STUFF....OF CUZ....chatting wit dem will make me laugh like HELLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

later, we went to IPOH PARADE FOR SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!! i bought a SKIRT and A PAIR OF GLADIATOR HEELS!!!!!!!!!! HAAHAHHAHAHHA..and some applicators and eyeliner sharpener..LOL....i gotta be home by TEN in case my dad was wondering what i was doing with them..HAHA..n i "reported" to him that im on my way home..HAHA....b4 fetching me home, we went to fetch JOEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she thought that i "'CURI CURI" (SNEAKING) went out with the girls...LOL...since it was my FIRST DAY to have the permission to GO OUT LATE...we wana take some NICE PICS OF US TOGETHER..HAHA...and so.....my house was chosen..LOL..owh...lets not forget bout ZA's DRIVING SKILLS!!!!!!!hAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAA

DAMN SYOK WEN SHE DROVE WEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we were at the flyover when DUNNO WHY she buta buta UTURN when she was SUPPOSED TO GO STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!HAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA since it was KINDA LATE (around 1030??) n so we cant afford to use the RIGHT ROAD to get to the RIGHT WAY, WE CHOSE A FORBIDDEN UTURN!!!!!!!!!!!!HAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! SYOKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!! and then, i reached home and CAMWHORED=)

THE NEXT DAY

TO DA SALOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAAAHAAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHA.....i went with tammy!!!!! another "SYOKNESS" DAY..she's gonna CURL her hair n im gonna cut mine!!!!!!! HAHA....i booked da place for the both of us on the day before....reached there at around 10!!!!!! i had da pics, but lazy wana post here..HAHA..will be posting it in FB LATER...so check it out=) my hair was done at around 12.....tammy's hair was COMPLICATED....she had 2 STRAIGHTEN it b4 PERMING== so.....MORE TIME NEEDED...i gotta LEAVE HER there ALONE guiltily..LOL....and by the time she msged me bout her hair was done..IT WAS FOUR PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I GOT MY PHONE BACK TODAY!!!!!!!!!!! but...smthing is still wring with the WIFI==

A "SYOKNESS" DAY 2MRW!!!!!!!! RAYA FUNZZZZZZZ=)

EXACTLY 79 DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!

~SYOK LEHHHHH........

1:47 PM

Thursday, September 17, 2009

tell me tell me tell me that im the UNLUCKIEST GIRL u've ever met

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MY PHONE HAS GONE CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT CHARGE THE BATTERY I CANT SEND MSGES I CANT MAKE A PHONE CALL I CANT RECEIVE PHONE CALLS OR MSGES I CANT TAKE PICS AND CANT SAVE ANYTHING I CANT GO ONLINE CUZ DA WIFI IS FAULTY TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE WRONG TIMING TO GET SPOILED????!!!!!!!!! IT'S SUCH AN IMPORTANT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY FRENS WOULD WANA CONTACT ME XPECIALY THIS WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ny dad's RIGHT predictions again == im gonna bring my phone for fixing later....so you guys who wana contact me please leave a msg via fb or msn or EMAILS....THANKS and sorry for the inconvenience!!!!

EVERYTHING SEEMS NOT RIGHT THESE DAYS==

81 MORE DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS

2:31 PM

Sunday, September 13, 2009

an entry i stole from tiffany OON

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http://tiffanyoon.blogspot.com/2009/09/when-i-was-18.html

this is an AWESOME entry i found worth reading so far=)

sorry fern for "stealing" ur entry..HAHA=P

1:50 PM

THIS, is a conversaiton i overheard....of age and DRUMSTICKS

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there were this brother and sister fighting over a drumstick.....and here came the father...all i remembered was this :

Father asking the sister : What year were you born in?

Sister replied : 1988

Father asking the brother : What about your brother ?

She replied : 1992

and then, the father said : You're 4 years older than your brother, before he was born, how many drumsticks had u eaten??

i was like WOW....and then the sister gave the drumstick to the brother, speechless.....hu wasn't???? i WAS SPEECHLESS too...HAHA...guess who's the father=)

85 DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS

hooray for DRUMSTICKS

12:56 PM

Saturday, September 12, 2009

the TIMING is ALWAYS not RIGHT..and i HATE IT

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IT ALWAYS HAPPENS AND I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY WOULD THE TIMING IS ALWAYS NOT RIGHT????!!!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!! HOW COULD SOMEONE BE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO UNLUCKY LIKE ME???!!!!!!!

everything seems not right these days..IM ANNOYED ENOUGH....i thought that i could AT LEAST go for a trip wit za and the gang after those REALLY hectic days of mine trying to complete my dad's magazine/book (whatever u name it)....it turned out that it is NOT THE RIGHT TIMING!!!! my parents wanted to take me 2 kl wit dem..n da other reason is (it's rather superstitious to some of you so i rather not talk about it)

BELIEVE ME..THESE THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN WHEN IM REALLY LOOKING FOWARD FOR A TRIP WITH MY FRIENDS...AND THE TIMING IS ALWAYS NOT RIGHT...BELIEVE ME...IT'S 90% NOT RIGHT...I WOULD REALY HAVE TO BEG MY DAD TO LET ME GO SMWHRE....and everytime i wanted to ask his permission..I'LL FEEL SCARED....i ALWAYS have to look for the opportunity to ask him.....afraid that he would say NO and secondly, THE WRONG TIMING......cuz my parents are VERY BUSY people too..need my help to take care of their stuff when they're not around (outstation).......so if it HAPPENS that the DATE we chose for a trip HAPPENS to fall on the date when they're not around, IM NOT ALLOWED TO GO ANYMORE....

and sometimes....they'll have LAST MINUTE PLANS.....SO.......at times, my friends and i had planned EVERYTHING perfectly when i'll have to find my guts to say NO GUILTILY....that is how sometimes some of my frens would say that i LOVE "FFK-ing"...i mean...if you're in MY PLACE...you'll KNOW HOW IT FEELS.....IT'S NOT LIKE I WANTED IT TO HAPPEN ANYWAY!!!!BEING A "RESPONSIBLE" DAUGHTER AND TRYING TO "BREAK" A PROMISE AT THE SAME TIME......wic will you HONESTLY choose??!! i rather NOT CHOOSE BOTH alrite

when my dad says YES....that is only 70% yes.....that is why when i "comfirm" the answer with my frens, i'll say "i THINK i can go" instead of "YESSS!!! I'LL BE THERE!!!" i dont wana giv any false hopes and being called "FFK" IN CASE if there's this "last minute changes"....AND DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS WHEN YOU LET YOUR FRENS DOWN??!!!IT IS ONE OF THE MOST TERRIBLE FEELINGS YOU COULD HAVE EVER IMAGINED....U CANT POSSIBLY STOP BEING GUILTY ALL OVER IT

seriously..i wonder when will this END..but im thankful that some of my frens understand my situation right now...love you guys lots..IM SO SORRY...i would REALLY love to go with you guys...IM SO SO SO AWFULLY SORRY

86 MORE DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS

LETS JUZ END THIS POST WITH A BIG SIGH

*trouble is a friend, lenka playing*

11:03 PM

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Days Leaving in TENS..............

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90 DAYS TILL MY ACCA EXAMS

~today would be 90, ten more days it will be 80, another 10 will be 70, then 60, then 50, then 40, then 30, then 20, then 10 AND EXAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS~

time sedang TERBANG

5:43 PM

Monday, September 7, 2009

FB has the SEASON for EVERYTHING....but the current one is.........

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FAN CHECK PHOTOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

MY NAME WAS TAGGED...AND THERE THIS REALLY REALLY LONG LIST OF NOTIFICATIONS....................................THIS IS JUZ A PART OF IT.....

AND THEN....THAT HIGHLIGHT CORNER ON THE RIGHT.......LOOKED AT THESE SCARY "FAN CHECK PHOTOS" AND THE NUMBER OF COMMENTS..........

DIZ IZ ZCARY..................

91 DAYZ TILL MY ACCA EXAMZ

P/S: I HAD THIS REALLY SCARY CONVERSATION WIT CYNTHIA YESTERDAY.....WEN I REALIZED HOW UNPREPARED I AM.........S.O.L (Shout Out Loud/ Save Our Lifes) AND S.M.S(Save My Soul) copyright intended ==

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